Life's a bitch when you live in Texas where the stars at night are big and bright. My brother and his girlfriend are having problems, well long story short he has no place to live now. Why would she talk him down there just to not want him there. Poor Ben. I mean I realized tonight that I can tell when something is wrong with him, and I was right. What is he going to do... Her excuse to get him out was that she is "afraid of him."  The hell she is! Cassie knows quite well that Ben loves her and wouldn't harm her on purpose. Oh well, life's a back stabbing bitch, what can I say?

      -Do You Still Cry?

Life's an endless drive we take alone. Might as well enjoy the ride take the long way home. Well, I hope I crash before I get home. I hope I crash into a semi truck... Life is such a lie. Tiffany is right. It is a pointless thing. Why live a lie when you can just end the lie. When people smile, are they really smiling? When people laugh, are they really laughing? When people say they are okay, are they really okay? No. Rarely are people doing things because they mean them. They just need to disguise the real them. When people smile they are dying inside. When they laugh it's just to keep from crying. When people say they are okay, they mean they are a walking disaster, but how are you? Why do people lie, what good does it do. Everything is just...pointless. Things were so much better before...  What happened....   Everything took a turn for the worse...  The past was the answer.

               -Do You Still Cry?

Being used and hurt. That's what happens to me on a daily basis. What's the point. People think everything is fine with me. It's not. Look behind the smile to see who I really am. The surface lies...

           -Do You Still Cry?

Why waste time living when you can end it all and be dead........

            -Do You Still Cry?

Its over. No will left to live. But, I will wear my fake smile and trick everyone. Only those who truly care will see the plastic smile and fake happieness... They will see that I am falling apart inside. They will help... If they truly care....They will help.....

          -Do You Still Cry?